August 2009

In which it is Monday

It is gray and damp and cool here and I can pretend that autumn is on its way. I am SO over summer. This weekend I did some hand-sewing and stared longingly at my sweaters. Today I am curling up with a pot of tea and some ghost stories--it's work, I promise.

Anyway, last week I made a flippant remark about blogging on Mondays about the seven deadly sins, but the more I thought about it, the more I liked the idea. Last week was envy. Today, let's muse about wrath, shall we?

Recently, I've become convinced that the root of anger is almost always fear. As soon as I say this, people argue with me. "No, I'm not afraid. I'm outraged!" they tell me stoutly. Yes, I think but don't say. But what if you dug a little deeper?

Rage is usually the result of feeling powerless, disrespected, undervalued. And why does this make us angry? Because we're afraid of BEING powerless, disrespected, and undervalued. It isn't easy to excavate to the depths of anger for its source. For starters, we're seldom capable of clear, rational thought when we're incandescent with rage. But if we revisit the situation later, when our heads are cool and our vision is clear, if we ask hard questions and are willing to hear hard answers, it's astonishing how much of our adult anger is the result of some fear lurking in the dark under the bed.

So we stamp our feet and turn puce in the face, covering our wrath with bluster and bravado and shielding our tender underbellies with spikes. It makes us feel stronger and more in control, but it seems to me this is an illusion. I am LEAST in control when I am angry. But if I can stop, if I can pause for a breath and try to identify what not what's making me mad, but what's making me AFRAID, instantly the situation is reframed. Suddenly, it's not about me being aggressive; it's about me being vulnerable. And vulnerability is easy to understand and to sympathize with. Instead of chastising myself for temper, I am able to see the circumstances and my own state of mind for what they really are, not what my anger is distorting them to be. And without rage getting in my way, I can resolve matters more easily, more swiftly.

What's fascinating to me is how resistant people can be to even the possibility that they are harboring deeply-buried fear. (Fascinating because the people who protest the loudest are the ones who seem MOST fearful.) I recently had a conversation with a woman who was enraged at her employee's shortcoming. We were discussing my conviction that fear was at the root of her reaction, and she firmly insisted it was plain, old-fashioned anger. But I wonder. The woman is dynamic and takes great pride in her job. Her employee's gaffe was going to possibly reflect badly upon my friend. The higher-ups in her ad company were sure to notice. I didn't press the matter, but the more we spoke, the clearer it became that she was worried that her employee's blunder would be laid at her door and not forgotten--an extremely logical fear, I thought, but one my friend was completely unwilling to acknowledge was even a possibility. And I wondered, if she had been at least open to looking at fear, would she have been able to release the situation more quickly instead of fretting over it as long as she did? (As a side note, I find that the idea I have the most violent knee-jerk reaction against is invariably the one I need to look at more closely. When things touch a nerve, our instinctive reaction is to jump back...)

In which I'm feeling whimmy

No, not a word, but if it WERE a word, it would mean "being in a whimsical mood". And because of that, I am sharing the most whimsical blog I follow, Bakerella. Now, do not blame me for the fact that as soon as you click on that link, you will GRIEVE that you do not have Pie Pops and Cowgirl Cookies sitting on a cooling rack somewhere, waiting to be devoured. (Seriously. Cowgirl Cookies. With PINK M-&-M's. How cute is that?) Because I don't keep white flour or white sugar in the house, I haven't as yet actually made anything I've found on Bakerella, but then again, I'm a big fan of vicarious living. (I watch shows about Himalayan mountain trekking, and I'm REALLY not doing that either.) Anyway, go and delight yourself with all the adorable, thoughtful, charming, whimmy things at Bakerella. But don't say I didn't warn you...

In which reader Sally asks about pacing

Here's an e-mail I received from Sally--the fabulous Sally from Already Pretty, a blog I flog frequently--about pacing in fiction: I'm curious about resting places in writing. I'm a very anxious person, and although I adore tension and action and suspense, I am always SO HAPPY when a story hits that spot where the characters aren't in any immediate danger. For a short time, everyone is just taking a break, the villain or threat is temporarily at bay, and the reader is given a chance to breathe. I'm working my way through SITS right now - at the pace of an elderly snail, thanks to my overbooked
life - and just got to a scene where Julia is having tea with Hortense after the first big drama has gone down. And, once again, found myself so pleased that I was given a chance to relax.

I'm curious about how a fiction writer chooses to place those resting
spots. I have only ever read one book that felt like the ENTIRE story
was at rest - Barbara Kingsolver's "Prodigal Summer." I loved it to
pieces, but was also amazed that a remotely interesting story could be
spun from rest and rest alone. I mean, there was plot and action, but
it was so mild that I never felt myself truly tense. Everything else
I've ever read sprinkles quiet moments sparingly amongst the action.
However, I imagine it would become overly predictable if those rests
ALWAYS happened directly after a big spike in action ... How do you
know when it's time to give everyone a breather?


An excellent question. I'm seldom asked about pacing, and I confess, my first reaction was, "Good grief, how do I know?!? It just happens!" (Y'all know by now that I am fairly superstitious about some things and analyzing my writing too closely is one of them.) But Sally deserves a better answer than that, so I'll give it a shot.

Writing is, to be mildly poetic, a form of alchemy. Writers transform base metal into gold by taking various mundane ingredients and tossing them into the crucible and applying heat. We can be secretive and possessive of our methods at times, and I can promise you that when I am it is simply because I haven't yet peeked behind that particular curtain. When I'm writing, I write from point to point. I know that when I start a book, I have to set the stage and introduce characters. From there I can introduce complications, and when those complications come, they require a breath in between so the reader can take stock of what I have done so far. There have to be levels, otherwise the entire book reads the same--usually a very dull thing.

When I think of the pacing of a novel I'm working on, I envision a sea. The reader is carried along on a little coracle, completely dependent upon the motion of that sea. If I raise the waves too high, too quickly, the craft capsizes, spilling the reader out and leaving them confused and bewildered. If I becalm the sea, the little boat sits too still for too long, exposing the reader to boredom and wandering fancies. But if I pitch it just right, each wave building a little higher, with perhaps a shorter lull between, the reader rides along happily, cresting the top of each wave and catching their breath in between. (And yes, I realize a coracle is not seaworthy, but it's my metaphor, so I get to make the rules.) And, to be completely prosaic here, lots of my pacing decisions are made for me simply because a certain piece of information must be discovered at a specific point or because two characters have to be brought together or torn apart. (My editor is also keenly aware of how many times I let them sit down to tea, so it's an issue I'm becoming more aware of myself with each book.)

Some writers are masters of pacing. I've mentioned several times that Mary Stewart was the finest I've ever seen at giving a tense, taut scene that lasts a hundred pages in which NOTHING HAPPENS. It's due entirely to the atmosphere of ramped-up tension she creates. I'm sure there are loads of writers who are gifted at dragging the reader along by the throat through three hundred pages of screaming tension, but these are not people I read, so I'm going to leave it there. The beauty is that whatever sort of tension you like to create, there is a reader who will be thrilled by it.

I also think that pacing--far more than plot or characters--determines the mood of a book. Summer is when I want something slower and more languid, long rivers of sentences that take their time. Winter, I might want something more complex and blood-stirring, with short, staccato constructions and heightened peril. What about you? Is pacing something you are aware of as a reader? Or are you simply, like many of us, just along for the ride?

In which we deal with miscellaneous odds and ends


First, reader Claire was kind enough to send me this picture she snapped of my books on the shelf last fall in Singapore. SINGAPORE, people--I'm global! I hadn't any idea my books were selling in Singapore, so I was entirely pleased, believe me.

Second, reader Diane who e-mailed me in July--I've tried to reply, but it keeps bouncing back.

Third, if you're in the mood for some rich, juicy new nail colors, RUN to your closest OPI connection and stock up on the Espana line! I have been searching for a dark, DARK green for ages and "Here Today...Aragon Tomorrow" is perfect. (I have a theory that if you're over thirty and want to wear more exotic colors like purple, blue, or green, a very dark incarnation is the best. Sophisticated as opposed to trendy.) I happened to have a $5 coupon for Ulta and snagged two bottles for $11 or so and got a three-pack of tiny bottles of luscious bright pinks as a freebie for my daughter. Why, WHY have I never been to Ulta before? So much delicious stuff and I had about ten minutes in there...alas.

In which it's reader question time

Today we're featuring the questions of Anonymous and teabird. Teabird mentioned that she (he?) is guilty of reading blogs without commenting and wants to know if I do the same. Why, yes, yes I do. I read probably fifty blogs on a regular basis and comment on maybe three of those, notably--Already Pretty, My Marrakesh, and Living a Beautiful Life.

Which brings me to a marginally related question: how many of y'all use blog readers? Do you love them? Which ones do you love? I'm working on making better use of my technology--this week saw me wrestling twitterfeed into submission and at least thinking about seesmic vs. tweetdeck.

Anonymous said: One of my favorites is Grim, the raven. Any chance he might be featured in a story? Grim will be back for Julia Grey #5. Julia is traveling at the start of book #4 and sea voyages were believed to be risky for birds, so she has left him safely at home in Aquinas' capable care.

We're down to the last four reader questions--can you believe it? They cover everything from Sherlock Holmes to Wuthering Heights to pacing and sources, so be sure to check in. Also, the first peek at The Dead Travel Fast will come in September's newsletter when we release the back cover copy for a tantalizing taste of the first book outside the Julia Grey series. Be sure to sign up for the newsletter on the FAQ page of the website if you haven't already done so!

In which I am testing twitterfeed

Pay no attention to the man behind the curtain...and Jeana, your reader question was about my pedicure. I am currently wearing Essie's Wicked.

In which reader Heather asks about my first book

As an aspiring writer, reader Heather was curious about my first experience with novel-writing. She wrote: when you started your first novel, how did it feel? Did it come easily? I am finding it scary and difficult, and I can only hope it gets better.

I wrote my first novel--not Silent in the Grave--when I was 23. I had just finished my first year of teaching and was feeling bored and restless when the summer came around. I had re-read Jane Eyre and decided to write something in a similar vein--mysterious, historical, with a nod to the Gothic. (I should point out that this was not just a whim. I had always planned that I would write novels.) Anyway, I sat down with a germ of an idea--no plot, no outline, no character studies--and wrote. I wrote every day for six or seven hours straight, something I've never managed to do since. My fingers would be stiffened into claws by the end of the day and my back would ache so badly I had to lie down on the floor just to straighten it out. But the experience of writing was brilliant. I loved it passionately. It was the first time I felt I really had the opportunity to let my imagination off the leash and see where it roamed. (I also learned the importance of backing up my work when I lost an entire afternoon's writing to a power surge.)

At the end of six weeks, I had a book. I didn't know what to do with it, of course, but I had a book. So I packaged it up and sent it off to a publisher who declined to purchase it, but who wrote a letter that began, "I think your writing is absolutely wonderful." That was the first time I realized I could fashion a career for myself at writing. Of course, it was almost sixteen years before I actually saw a book of mine in print, but the experience of writing that first book was absolutely magic.

Heather, since you remarked that you're finding it difficult, I'm going to offer a completely unsolicited observation: it is possible that you are allowing your internal editor too much of a voice at this point. Do what you must to shut her up. The first book--and most especially the first DRAFT of the first book--is just for writing. It's for making mistakes and miscues, it's messy. But the most important thing is to get something on paper. You can push and pull and lop and crop and make whatever you like of it once it's THERE, but you must have something to work with. It's like dressmaking. You have a length of gorgeous fabric, but it's nothing until it's cut and draped and pinned and sewn. But you will never have anything to cut and drape and pin and sew if you don't get the fabric first. Reader Megan, I hope that answers your question about internal editors as well. You have to simply ignore and push through! If you want a follow-up to this, just leave a comment and I'm happy to elaborate. Good luck to both of you!

In which it is Monday

which usually means re-posts from the original Blog A Go-Go, but today I thought I'd share a link I found yesterday to an extraordinary blog entry at The Word Cellar. It is the webby home of Jennifer McGuiggan, freelance editor and writer, and the topic is envy as inspiration. (And I think I have just this minute decided to make Mondays "Seven Deadly Sins Day" and blog about lust, envy, pride, etc. for the next seven weeks. Wouldn't THAT be fun?) Anyway, envy is one of those prickly things we don't like to talk about. It's ugly and misshapen and we shove it to the back of the closet under clothes that no longer fit us and toys we have broken. In this entry, Jennifer drags it into the light and dusts it off and puts it to work--a genius idea and a very good reminder that someone else's success doesn't mean there's less for YOU.

In which you might not want to come over


if I ever invite you for a mushroom omelet. We've had a fair bit of rain the past few weeks and the mushrooms are sprouting up like...well, like mushrooms. Because none of us are amateur mycologists, we're assuming they're all poisonous to the pups and yanking them out whenever we see them. (With proper precautions, of course. Gloves always, and the mushrooms are put into plastic bags so the spores won't escape and make baby mushrooms.) This is the largest we've found so far. I have included the glove for scale. Alarming, isn't it? I suspect it's a member of the genus Boletus, but since some boletes are poisonous, I'm certainly not slicing it up for dinner.

In which Vicki talks Gothics

Reader Vicki asked if I have ever considered writing a Gothic novel. Ah, funny you should ask! The first two books I wrote were straight Gothic novels. It is a genre I LOVE, although I think it's a genre that's very easy to do badly. I grew up reading Victoria Holt, and eventually added Elizabeth Peters/Barbara Michaels, M.M. Kaye, and Mary Stewart to the mix. I do think there's a demand for them still--and loads of very commercial books have Gothic elements in them even if they don't fall completely in the genre. To me, The Dead Travel Fast is a pure Gothic. It's historical, with a heroine who leaves her comfortable and familiar surroundings for a more exotic and mysterious locale. There is peril and suspense and an ongoing mystery about whether the events that unfold are supernatural or simply the work of a malicious character. (There's even a scene in a crypt...) Much of my writing is an homage to books I've read and loved, and TDTF is no exception. It will be out in March 2010, so mark your calendars!